So I stop delaying. I’m terrible at keeping lab notebooks.. which after a decade in science you’d think I’d have realized is a disastrous way to proceed.
TTC timeline and other life events thus far
August 2012 – go off birth control. Proceed to have a 92 day cycle (9 day LP), an 80 day cycle (9-10 day LP), and a 36 day cycle (12 day LP). Last natural ovulation was February 27th, 2013.
January 2013 – bloodwork and ultrasound. Bloodwork shows utterly normal thyroid. Ultrasound shows normal non-cystic ovaries. At this point, I think my body is still just sloughing off the effects of ten years on the pill.
March 2013 – Decide to start TTC, no more prevention for us! Also no more ovulations! Our timing needs work already.
April 2013 – We get engaged. We can’t get married, but it’s nice to be sappy and romantic now and again.
August 2013 – After two 100+ day annovulatory cycles, ended with progesterone, I decide it is high time to get more assertive with my body. New blood work with an OB/GYN. FSH and LH are low, LH:FSH is 3:1, AMH is off the charts (40 where normal is 1-3, 5 is high). This seems like bad news, but OB/GYN is unfazed. I read up on it and realize this bodes quite badly (read: specter of IVF looms much earlier than I had hoped).
October 2013 – clomid 50 mg, cd 5-9. Ovulation on cd24, 9 day LP
November 2013 – clomid 100 mg. cd 5-9. Starting tomorrow, on cd5. Hoping for (a) earlier ovulation and (b) longer luteal phase. Nine month-long luteal phase still seems ambitious.
Ambitious isn’t the right word. Presumptuous? Rash? Entitled? I don’t really believe I can be fertile, so hoping for a pregnancy isn’t instinctive for me. How much of this is self-preservation and how much is my usual fatalistic/pessimistic personality, I’m not sure. Also clomid and high AMH tends to mean shredded linings and crap-tastic eggs (based on one medical study, so, grain of salt)… which means I will be FLOORED if this works.