frustration

I am about to call my OB/GYN to get a prome.trium prescription, to end this second cycle of clomid.  I’m on cd30, and while I do think I am ovulating today, I have thought this for more than eight days so far this cycle.  Always untrue, misguided, misjudged.

I can’t get a clear signal from my body, but as each morning greets me with a low temperature, the lack of signal is proven correct: my body is dormant still.  Without an ultrasound, I can’t tell if I have follicles growing, and an ultrasound is just not how my OB/GYN rolls.  More on that later, and the life choices that lead to me being in the US for this journey and not my native land, with its cushy healthcare.  I’d know more there.  It wouldn’t change whether I ovulate or not though, and I’ve come to terms with that.

I am so frustrated today, I can’t even describe it.  I get two more mornings, and then I have to acknowledge this cycle is over. 

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