I’m sitting on my couch, running blast searches and filling in a table for a paper, and sobbing.
I have no idea why.
Possibly because I got railroaded by two pregnancy announcements this morning. Maybe because I’m a hormone-juiced emotion monster. Probably because I am genuinely sad about this whole infertility schtick, and I took a nice break over the weekend and then binged on blogs and forums and google searches when I got back to civilization, which was stupid. Really stupid, and I am going to try to stay away for a few days to reset.
Remember when I said I was an even-keeled, hard to ruffle person? That was, almost definitively now, my absent hormones and not my own sensibility. Annoying.
I’m at least making good progress on the table. That is all.
Edit: there is this funny thing in my family where we cry if we overheat. I just ditched a blanket, and drank a giant glass of cold water. Between posting my whininess and cooling off, I’m feeling much better. Ha.