Beta dropped to 2, an official negative. I am released from purgatory, and no longer required to play pin cushion in my early mornings.
This is good. Pea texted “yay, I am glad!” at the news. My nurse was pleased.
I am pleased on one level and quite unhappy on another. It’s not like I wanted this situation to continue, this is exactly the result I wanted today. But. But, I did at one point think my reality had shifted, that I was freed of the thermometer and the clinic, moving on to new landscapes. To be back now, officially, to where I did not want to be in the first place is not uniformly positive in my mind. I am not very upset, but I am also not particularly glad if I take the sum of my emotions.