I am driving myself completely insane symptom spotting. I had to have a long talking-to with myself yesterday morning after being devastated that my boobs were not at all sore. It was 8dp3dt, so 11 days post-o. It is still SO EARLY.
I have been very thirsty the past four days or so. Yesterday afternoon there was the scantest of spotting, and yesterday afternoon was also a crampapalooza in my uterus. I vacillate wildly on whether I feel optimistic or not. It is not healthy, and I am doing my best to stay rational, but I am largely failing.
The most insidious thing that I do is to compare these early symptoms with my other pregnancies. Which, I will remind us all (but mostly ME, listen up ME), never hit a beta above 100, AND had totally different phenotypes. I have NO IDEA what a healthy early pregnancy feels like, even putting aside the oft mentioned ‘every pregnancy felt totally different’.
Beta is Friday. I am currently thinking I will test on Wednesday, at a nice healthy 14 dpo, and with only two progesterone shots to suffer through needlessly should it be negative. Now is too early for a negative not to mess with my head, and for the number of grumpy needles to follow. I currently don’t think I can wait til Friday, I will lose what of my mind I have left, but if I gain stamina I will try to hold off on testing… since for me, two lines aren’t really the beginning anymore.